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This is more of a complaining journal than I would like it to be. I'm sure most of you probably assume I'm a whiny bitch just because all I seem to do on here is complain, but today I am REALLY frustrated. The situation is a bit difficult to explain but I'll do my best, for a class I am taking with my husband to help us be better wellness coaches we each have to create a vision board. Mine with have things on it that his won't and vice versa, my problem is I have a serious problem deciding what I want. My brain is wired and trained to save money, and the purpose of this board is to put pictures of things you will have, that you will earn, that are your goals in life down so that you can see them everyday and they become more real, and more attainable for you. That's FANTASTIC is it not? It makes me all pumped and ready to go "hey lets do this, lets go out there and change lives!" I want to look at things, I want to have things beyond my wildest dreams (and anyone that has known me for a while should know that my actual dreams while I am sleeping get pretty wild.) So I get excited and I look for things, things that I want. I need to find things that strike me with emotion, excitement, I want to find things that are not only just cool to have, but stuff that stirs a feeling of "I HAVE to have THAT!" So I'm looking, and getting all hyped up, and I want to share with DJ so bad "Hey isn't this AMAZING?" and he doesn't care.
Bottom line, he just doesn't even want to look. Part of it is my fault, I get so hyper about it that I want to share right that minute... and his game is more important at the time because that's where his focus is. I can understand him being pre-occupied, and his game being more important for the moment, honestly that's fine with me I like him to be entertained, I get more cuddle time when he's relaxed and chill from playing a bit. The problem is that this happens EVERY single time. Not once in the past, not twice, but EVERY TIME I have tried to share. My brain doesn't translate to "oh he's busy, show him later" my brain for some stupid reason that I can't even comprehend automatically switches to "he just doesn't care about me right now..." I know that's horrible, and self pitying,and I know he doesn't mean it that way but I'm sorry it just fucking hurts. Every time he gets all hyped up about something I try my best to pay attention, sometimes I tell him that I'm not really in the moment and ask him to show me later, but I at least acknowledge that he is there, and that he wants to share something with me.
Well that's enough of my rant, I'm not ang
Bottom line, he just doesn't even want to look. Part of it is my fault, I get so hyper about it that I want to share right that minute... and his game is more important at the time because that's where his focus is. I can understand him being pre-occupied, and his game being more important for the moment, honestly that's fine with me I like him to be entertained, I get more cuddle time when he's relaxed and chill from playing a bit. The problem is that this happens EVERY single time. Not once in the past, not twice, but EVERY TIME I have tried to share. My brain doesn't translate to "oh he's busy, show him later" my brain for some stupid reason that I can't even comprehend automatically switches to "he just doesn't care about me right now..." I know that's horrible, and self pitying,and I know he doesn't mean it that way but I'm sorry it just fucking hurts. Every time he gets all hyped up about something I try my best to pay attention, sometimes I tell him that I'm not really in the moment and ask him to show me later, but I at least acknowledge that he is there, and that he wants to share something with me.
Well that's enough of my rant, I'm not ang
Sims 3 Perfect Genetics Stream Update.
Today stream was about an hour and a half. I didn't get much done as far as furthering the plot; Although, I did move my family from their huge mansion that I had built before Onion was born into a smaller house. They still own it but I was getting sick of the layout and just the sheer vastness of the property. I'm not saying that the family won't eventually move back into it, but until Yuzu has children with it just being the five residents they don't really need all that space.
Yuzu is going to have an interesting life, he will do pretty much anything. I might have him seek out a few schemes. The stream needs some drama so if you guys have
Update Feb. 2017
Wow. Already half passed February.
I feel like a lot has happened, but really nothing much. We went on vacation. It was fun but I don't feel like writing a whole thing on it. :shrug:
DJ's birthday is Wednesday!~
The cats are being snuggle buddies because of all the rain, Lolli is being a grumpy butt because of all of the rain.
I'm trying to get my writing schedule back on track, I'm put the big series on hold; (I plan on resuming it for NaNoCamps and NaNoWriMo) However, I am resuming work on a series of novellas that I dropped a few years ago, I've had a few fresh ideas to add to the stack and now I'm revived and ready to flesh them out.
Novel Excerpt for NaNoWriMo 2016
Soft light entered the room. The air was cool and fresh. Lucille woke slowly and stretched, the dawn releasing her from her dreams. Pushing the tangled mess of auburn hair away from her face. She pulled back the light blue quilt and swung her legs off of the bed and her feet hit to frozen floor. Blinking quickly she glanced at the open window between the side of her bed and her desk. Chewing on her lower lip she sighed and closed it slowly and as quietly as she possibly could. If she was lucky she was the first one awake and her father wasn’t back from the city yet. She had been scolded several times for leaving the window open at night
I don't understand why I can't work in peace.
Outlining today has been a pain. I'm almost done, but it would be easier if people would leave me alone and let me work. I had to send DJ to the store to make him go away, and I'm two interruptions from my mom (who lives with us now, for health reasons) away from going nuts. If she needed me to help her with something, I would understand but the last four times were her "just making sure I'm okay." I love her but I've been living just fine with out her popping in every 15 minutes for 6 years.
Sorry for the rant guys. I am just so frustrated.
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Amber does the same thing. >.>